Friday, July 22, 2011

Alone

Loneliness is a choice that we must fight. Being lonely can only be possible when you feel that no one around you understands you or cares about you. The idea of loneliness can only occur and be resolved by you.

Loneliness is a dangerous thing when it comes to life here on earth. We convince ourselves to become to the victim loneliness where there might someone that knows exactly what you mean. The seasons of life create that mood of transition, and it usually makes that time lonely. Because no one knows what you are thinking IF you don't share your thoughts and life with someone else.

I have learned that sharing your life with someone is a true blessing and gift. And I don't mean to say that you must brag or create some sort of advertisement for the ups and downs that occur in your life, but that you realize others need that care just as much as you do.

Without human interaction we cease to live happily. Especially if our hearts feel lonely even when we have the Lord right there with us. Christ is the one consistent being in your life whether you recognize it or not. Although the physical aspect is not there; he truly is there watching over you no matter what you believe.

The emotion of loneliness is only an absence of action. Create a life that you don't fall victim to feeling alone, because you deserve to experience life to the fullest.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Humble Pie

I have recently attend a new church for about 6 months now. I have been a part of the junior high ministries for over a month. Needless to say, I forgot how energetic these guys can be. Capture flag almost every week, and there fast little legs giving me a run for my money.
I love youth. I love the idea of investing in the lives of youth to make for a better tomorrow. This, however, was a new step for me. I have been so used to mentoring my peers, that I have never been in the position to lead those more than 4 years younger than me. The real kicker is realizing that half the junior high students are 70% boys.
So in short it has been a bit of a challenge for me to really begin this adventure of mentor-ship and leadership. I love the sense of change in pace, and how much I learn from these guys, but it has been hard finding my place in the midst of active brusk nature.
Today, it hit the most to feel that I do not have a specific place in my ministry, or a specific title. I even got to the point of feeling frustrated at myself because I did not feel needed. Then, Christ's humility truly hit me. The point of ministry is not for ME to feel need. The point of ministry is to be an example of Christ, to be a role model, to be there for anyone, to give back all of me without asking anything in return. And for me I was asking for the feeling NO PRIVILEGE of being needed by others.
Humility comes in many forms, and today my pride got the best of me. I must be thankful that I have the opportunity to even witness the lives of these precious students, but also be mindful that my worth is in Christ not in others opinion of me.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Weddings Ideas

I'm a closet wedding freak. And though I pull off not showing how much I want my wedding to be amazing doesn't mean I don't store ideas, and fawn over the beautiful wedding blogs. So I wanted to keep a post solely on the ideas I might want for my future wedding.

Color Scheme:

greys and light purples
black and white


Guest book ideas:
Fingerprints on a tree

Save the Dates:
Magnets
Photo booth them

To be continued...

Sunday, June 12, 2011

One of those days

Today I had one of those days you can sit and breathe, and it was wonderful. I was able to rest and reflect on what my life has come to, and where I want it to go.
My life is filled with so many blessing, and today was one of those days I was able to fully appreciate each person.
The days that you come across and you are able to flip through the memories of the past week, and how beautiful they were, or even how painful they were, and find the rare emotion of realizing those days are now gone.
Whatever it was that made you cry, you are another day over it. Whatever it was that made you happy, you are at another day to repeat it.
It is cliche to say that today is a gift, which is why we call it the present. As we wake up each day, we decide how to conquer it. We can conquer it with strength, apathy, love, disappointment, or even all of the above.
Realize the things you have, and never dwell on the things you don't have for those thought will only bring negative emotions. Whereas realizing your blessing will create inner peace and happiness.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Life's Measuring Cup

The cup of being enough
that is how we see ourselves
each day we try to measure ourselves to be enough

Why?


Enough for who? Ourselves? For others?

We worry about who and what we look like to others. Believe me. I am the number one culprit. When in reality the only person we should be concerned of impressing is our Lord. Unfortunately, that does not always happen for the common soul. We strive each day to be  filled by other people in our lives to feel loved, accepted, appreciated, and remembered. Yet, we have a God that does all that and more. Perhaps, it is the lack of tangible physical reciprocation that bewitches our minds to believe we are alone. One day someone asked m, "If you were to be enough for someone, what would that look like?"

That single question changed my perspective. What would it look like if I were enough? Would it mean I would be physically beautiful, become a genius, become wealthy? I had no idea what being enough for someone would look like.

I discovered that is why someday I felt so helpless, because each day I was trying to reach a standard that was not even set for myself. I could never be over or under my own measure because it did not exist.


The measuring act that we face everyday can never fully be defeated, because we are imperfect. We must constantly remind ourselves that we are not programmed to be perfect beings. If we were perfect beings our lives would be carried out like we were robots. Swimming through life without a soul. The feeling of shame, unworthiness, and loneliness only come to us when we forget how special we truly are. I know, how cliche of me. But in all seriousness our worth gives us the fuel to strive to be the best us we can be.

No matter the circumstance remember that you are enough for Him.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Blog Name Defined

The name of my blog was conjured to express the ideas of hardships and blessings. The hard times in our life are like knots. Hard to untie almost unavoidable. Ribbons are the beautiful blessings in our life that make life worth living. But without creating a knot we cannot create ribbons. They both have their role in our lives but without one with the other the appreciation for both would not exist.